Setbacks are all in a day’s work…
Tuesday was one of those days where I was in a state of melancholy. A day where you question almost everything in your existence. Whether you’ve made enough progress in your job; am I happy with the work I’ve done today? Better yet – am I happy?
It was a meltdown type of day – where you’re in tears by the end of the day. It could have been the 35 degree weather in Toronto taking its toll on me, who knows! I lost my normal state of happiness; my usual positive outlook. An outlook where no matter the challenge, I’ll take it on! To stay positive, even in the face of adversity. I even had a friend throwing my usual advice to them back at me. It’s always fantastic to have a friend like that. Sometimes you need it because we all have setbacks. Failures. It’s how we pick ourselves up afterwards that matters. Did we learn from it?
There are many things weighing on my mind that likely contributed to what happened Tuesday. The first is I have an insane ability to worry – that I am working hard to overcome! My job, my commute, my debt, my parent’s health (aging baby boomers), my lack of a significant other; all weigh on my mind. I used an interesting analogy when I spoke to my parents about it. I felt like what I envisioned for my life was over here (I pointed to my right) but the life I was leading was all the way on the opposite side of the spectrum (I pointed to my left). The response I received was: “So change it, you’re in control of your own life.” Words I know too well. I changed my life in 2009/2010; maybe it’s time to do so again.
My friend gave me the best words: Tomorrow is another day, you can start again.
So I started again on Wednesday – with a migraine. Uh oh! I had clearly stressed myself out so much that my body was saying HECK NO! Luckily, I work for an employer that understands we all have days like this and I have the ability to work from home. I left Tuesday’s setbacks behind and actually got a lot of work done Wednesday. It was a day full of Excel reports (which most people dread) but I accomplished a lot. I felt very good at the end of the day.
What did I learn from my meltdown?
- Setbacks can happen. You need to learn from it and move on.
- That my body will eventually let me know when enough is enough. You never want to get to this point!
- I need to make some changes to keep myself in my happy zone.
- I need to devote more time to exercise and diet. I’ve done this in the past with great success and have committed to do it again (I lost 30 pounds previously and felt fantastic – luckily I haven’t gained that much back…only 6 pounds).
Happiness depends upon ourselves. — Aristotle