What does a week of journaling your shopaholic habits get you? A lot of shock, awe and insight into a shopaholic mind and its driving forces. When I decided to start working towards a no clothing spend year, I thought part of the exercise should include delving into my mind and its habits towards shopping. If you can’t pinpoint why the nasty habit is there, you have little ammunition to change it. In this post, you’ll read my daily adventures for a week, on things I dream about buying each day, how many times (or hours), I think about shopping and at the cue of other bloggers suggestions, what my emotions are at the time.
Saturday Oct 4th – 2 hours spent in the morning surfing through Net A Porter, J Crew, James Perse, and Sporting Life to name a few. I was very tempted to purchase a Canada Goose winter jacket, a dress and a few T-Shirts. If I had done it, the total damage would have been $1255.00
Later on that night, I decided to hunt down a Kate Spade polka dot binder, because my mind thought it would be just so fabulous to house my blog planner. Hmmm… I seriously need help when there are about eight binders in the basement I could reuse. Sadly, they don’t have polka dots on them but they’ll do.
Emotions – Sick and bored. I have been off work since Wednesday with a cold and going slightly stir crazy not being about to workout, leave the house or exert myself too much. The Kate Spade moment involved the desire to be fashionable (though no one would see it but me) and girly. Oh, boy…this is going to be a long week.
Sunday Oct 5th – I managed to avoid the morning online shopping wakeup call or waste of time as I have now deemed it. It took me the better part of the day before I started thinking about buying something. Clearly, boredom struck again because of my cold, but I managed to read my course books for school. It worked for a bit. I spent about 30 minutes in the afternoon on Club Monaco, Emerson Fry and Sporting Life. What led me there? Again, boredom and for Club Monaco I saw an ad online for newly added items on sale. I am such a pushover.
In total, I thought about buying something or an item I “perceive” I need about six times today and another 3 hours of time was wasted away online.
Emotions – Still sick and very bored from being stuck indoors.
Monday Oct 6th – I avoided my morning routine again of waking up and heading to online retailers. Wahoo! I did, however, mid-morning receive an email (one of the two I still get) about a sale and tried to purchase a pair of shorts but it rejected my order. A higher power is clearly trying to slap me into reality. Thank you Great Being in the sky, without that slap, another $100 would have been wasted.
Later on at lunch, I subconsciously clicked on Net A Porter out of plain habit and possibly boredom. It was time to shut off my PC again.
Emotions – Positive. Recovering from flu and feeling better. I’m able to focus again without feeling miserable and it’s given me the willpower to shut off my computer.
Tuesday Oct 7th – Back to work! This was a busy day of catching up at work from being off sick, which kept most of my focus off shopping. I did think about clothing several times throughout the day but never took action. In all my brilliance though, later on I decided to watch Sunday’s episode of Outlander again – “The Wedding”. Well, that got me thinking about how I used to have a kilt in high school and how it would be so nice to have a modern one in nice colors for fall to keep me warm because the two pencil skirts I have now just aren’t enough. Grrrrr…damn brain. See what I mean? A TV show got me thinking about shopping for clothes. UGH. Note to self: must replace shopping with exercising again as I have done before. Whenever I feel a lack of focus in an area of my life, I usually resort to exercise, but somewhere along the line, I started substituting shopping. Money saved $600 (yes, a genuine Scottish wool kilt shipped from the UK costs that much).
Emotions – For most of the day, exhausted. Later on, a bit of melancholy (lonlienss) sank in, due in part to watching Outlander. I’m such a sap. Er, well, sucker for love stories and adventure.
Wednesday Oct 8th – Morning routine avoided again! I suppose that’s what waking up at 5AM gets you; it helps reprogram a bad shopping habit. I had zero time in the morning to sit down before work and shop, I had to get up and go. After working in Toronto for most of the day, I thought about shopping twice – once was about needing a warmer coat for the winter months ahead (the wind was chilly reminding me of the impending doom of winter), and the other I can’t remember; as with all things shopping – not worth remembering. I did, however, go online browsing later on at night while I was working on a project for my PM course. I got a little bored in between studying and started surfing Poppy Barley, now I want shoes. Oh my! Money saved – about $350
Thursday Oct 9th – Even being in the office does not stop me! I had a workday in our head office today and clothing came to mind twice. I desperately wanted to get out of sitting at a desk and thought about surfing clothing retailer sites twice, didn’t do it though. But, when I got home, I had to check out a few things I’ve been looking at. Still no purchases thank goodness.
Emotions – Boredom and a bit of melancholy were the emotions of the day. I was mostly bored but on the drive home a little sad. I’m not entirely sure where the sadness came from, but I blame it on the music I was listening to. Note to self: No Enya in the car in the afternoon. Enya is only permitted on the long arduous commute into Downtown Toronto with all the crazy “I want to drive 120 in an 80 zone” lunatics.
Friday Oct 10th – This was a bad sick day, I was stuck in bed for most of the day and could barely move. Good thing for shopping – there was none. Bad thing – I felt miserable most of the day.
Saturday Oct 11th – Saturday’s magic number was four. I was online four times and each time I tore myself away from online shopping by doing chores, exercising, detailing my car or going outside for a walk. What was I shopping for? A kilt – again. Darn Outlander. I love that show. Then, pajamas, a winter coat and hiking/running shoes. I did finally cave to the shopping demon to purchase a new pair of runners to replace my old worn ones. $125 spent. It was worth it, as my feet were getting sore. I usually take my old runners that I’ve used indoors for a year on the treadmill and switch them to outdoor walking shoes. These had a year and a half of use on them and the soles were almost gone!
Sunday Oct 12th – I was online twice today. With focus and determination, I’m refocusing my habits and doing things I should be doing, such as studying for my courses and exercising. I still caught myself on Etsy for about an hour eyeing a few handmade skirts – can’t seem to get a tartan skirt out of my head.
On average, I discovered that I waste anywhere from 2-4 hours EACH DAY online shopping. OMG, right? What a waste. What is it they say; sometimes you can’t see the trees for the forest? Yep, fashion is the forest and each tree is an hour of my time wasted.
The results? I’ve established that I’m bored. Utterly and completely bored with my life. It is sad to admit this because how much time and how many moments of my life have I been wasting. Sheesh. The only thing that does not bore me at present is writing, blogging and taking my new courses. Maybe I’ve been in my current career for far too long…I’ve decided to get that fighting demon back that was inside me a few years ago. I am going to fight for the life I want, the body I want, and the career; it won’t be easy as motivation has been lacking but I’m going to fight past it. As with any change, fighting the comfort of the present to get to the future I want won’t be easy but it will be entirely worth it.